Thursday, February 24, 2011

where are you, Iza? why can't I find you?


I am the queen of keeping in touch. If I met you for 5 minutes, I will probably friend you on face book and try to keep in touch. Maybe I’m nosy, but I really just love knowing what’s going on in people’s lives. So currently, nothing is bothering me more than thinking about a person that I have lost touch with.
In 10th grade, during the worst year of my life (legit), an exchange student from Poland came to live at my house. Being an only child, this was my first and only opportunity to experience what life could be like with a sibling…and I loved it (most of the time). I can honestly say that I don’t know how I would have made it through that year without Iza Lecyk.
We fought like sisters. We made up dances and made home videos in the play room like sisters. We slept in the same room, anxiously awaiting Christmas morning and our Disney vacation like sisters. We rode our bikes to CVS together like sisters. We memorized all of the words to the Kelly Clarkson “Breakaway” CD together and sang at the top of our lungs, like sisters. We had family dinner every night and often made a trip to ColdStone for dessert (chocolate devotion, of course).
So anyways, I found a copy of a note that I wrote Iza, and thought I would share:
“Hey Iza,
The cheese stands alone…what?…sharp right!…hypo-po-to-mass and bam breakfast, chocolate devotion and Michael Myers. We have had so many good times. I will miss you more than I can even explain. Before you came, all I wished for was a sister, or even a brother, just someone who I could share the bond with. When I was told we were getting an exchange student I NEVER imagined the bond that you and I would share. You are such an amazing person. You took care of me when I was sick and you ALWAYS made me laugh when I was sad. We did everything together, from sleeping in a tent, to doing Pilates. I don’t know what I will do when you’re gone. I am assuming it’s going to be a little easier for you because you are going home to all of your friends and things. When you leave you will leave behind three very sad new family members and a ton of friends. You came into my life and in just ten, very quick months you became my sister, my workout buddy, my Nintendo girl, my laser tag partner, and my best friend. I wish we had just a little more time so we could do more things together. I will miss you so very much and I will never ever ever forget you and I hope that even when you go home to all of your friends, you won’t forget me either. Always remember that I love you.”
To have someone come into your life during such a terrible time, and to be so completely vulnerable with this stranger…that was what made us close. We shared every waking moment together for 10 months. The little things I always wished for in a sibling had finally come true. I had another kid in the house to share my excitement with on Christmas morning. I had someone to fight over the bathroom with. I had someone to share clothes with and go shopping with and dress up for Halloween with. I had someone to dance and sing and be silly with, and someone to go with me on the first day of school. I had a best friend who lived with me and became my sister. I think one of my favorite moments was waking up on Christmas morning and opening a present labeled “To my sister, love Iza.”
SO, right now my heart is sad. My heart is sad because I am realizing more and more that she was a temporary sister and I don’t have that anymore and never will again. But mainly I am hurting because I have no way of keeping in touch. She has deleted her face book and become inactive on Skype. I literally have no way of knowing what country she’s in or how she’s doing. Does she have a boyfriend? A girlfriend? How is Alan? Is Chica alive? Is she in school? Does she ever think of me? I don’t know. And I have no way of knowing. So in some ways, it feels like a death. A major loss. So, Izabela Lecyk, if you are out there, let me know how you are. I miss you.
-B-
Some random Iza memories: Black Eyed Peas, dancing in the bathroom mirror, ‘for a while’, the trying on clothes dance, cooking chicken schnitzel, retard parking, death people, just loose it, where is your heart, where the people are touch the sky, slim jims, burnt grilled cheese and soup, Sims, your sure friend, Bailard, POTATO, Hi I’m mary and I’m choking, wet ones, this sh*t is bananas, no principals no student TEACHERS.

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